Disentangled

(continued from previous post dated 22nd August)
I wanted to say a lot of things which perhaps couldn't be expressed
in writing, so I called her up. We spoke at length on everything that
came to mind and neither of us wanted to end the call. However, it
stirred up unexpected reactions!


lea - kothar jaale amake khali jodiye felo........aami kichchu bujhi
na tomai, kenoi ba amaake etokhkhon dhore call korle ? kenoi ba
amaake emon bhabe mail koro janina.........ki chao tao bujhina. tobe
aami amaar kotha bolte pari.........aami to kokhono bhabini je tomar
moto keu amaake mail korbe, amaar khoob bhaalo lage tai mail kori,
er theke beshi kichu bhabte chai na, taholei bodh hoy shanti. e-
friendship -er theke beshi kichu asha korata theek hobe na (i mean
true friendship)...........amaar haath-ta kaapche.........(may be u wont
believe).......but i feel really shaken.........we were talking for the last
2 hrs almost...........i dont know what all i said, what all u said.........i am
all so confused abt this whole thing. u know what I am not the smart
chalu kind of girl who is loking for some thrill on the net, i am not even
looking for a date...............why am i telling u all this? please help me if
u can...........please help me close this issue forever. aami eto bhoy
keno pachchi ? kisher bhoy ? ki aami chai, kichu bujhina.....aami to
shudhu bondhutto chai, shetuku dilei hobe, shudhu thokiyo na amay,
etukui bolchi. u think i am some kind of a nut.....or may be u think i
am pretending to be too innocent or something like that..........but
believe me I am not anything of that sort. i am a normal ordinary girl,
sometimes smart, sometimes too innocent, and probably confused
and scared when it comes to u. i dont know why. Please help.



kband - there are too many ghosts in your mind M that i can handle
at a time. in my last mail, i tried to do some jhaar-phook to one such
monster and now i find there's another one more mean here - era ki
roktobeej rakshas naki? anyway there are few ways i can possibly
help :
a) stop writing to you completely (now don't take it as emotional
blackmail)
b) change my style of writing and make it more conventional
(like your other e-pals)
c) send you my bio-data and also thikuji kushthi on everything
about me
d) none of the above, i.e. continue as if nothing happened.
now take your pick, else you suggest what else could be done coz i
think u have it all in ur mind.



lea - "......khamosh hothon se kya paigam doon
bechain dil ko kaise araam doon.........."
"Is agaaz ko kya anjaam doon,
bechain dil ko kaise araam doon.........."
DONT TRY TO DO ANY JHAAD PHOOK ANY MORE
a) IF U WANT TO STOP WRITING BECAUSE U THINK I AM
PARANOID, U R FREE TO DO SO. BUT I AM NOT ASKING YOU TO
b)PLZ STOP REFERRING TO MY OTHER E-PALS, COZ I HAVE
REPEATEDLY TOLD U I HAVE NONE. THE ONES WHO WRITE ARE
NOTHING MORE THAN STRANGERS TO ME, AND THEY DO NOT
MATTER. SO I DONT SEE WHY U SHOULD EMULATE THEM.
c)I DONT WANT ANY SUCH DETAILS FROM U.
Well, I think I have made everything pretty clear, R, as you wanted.
You will never face any questioning from me ever again. There wont
be any ghosts any more. Probably just you and me and our world.



kband - o baba eto chokhe shudhu lal lal sorshephool dekhchchi !!
that's me M. just trying to be humorous in my own way, most just
can't understand me coz i'm different in the way i tend to express
myself in any situation - kothar jaaley jodano aamar uddeshyo noi,
kaukey exploit korao aamar chintar bairey (least of all u) - most of
the time shei jonyo aami nijekey camouflage korey rakhi with a guru
gombhir look and haab-bhaab so that aamar bairey ta dekhey bhetor
ta chena is almost impossible. i had a feeling that maybe, just maybe,
there was a mirror in u which reflected my self, and i was turning out
to be RIGHT! but then u seemed to get caught in a whirlpool and i
simply wanted to help u in coming out of the tangle - that's why i tried
to call and speak to u at length, to explain to you that i'm real and not
a figment of your imagination.
enough funda-baazi for today, g'nite M



lea - I stand at 5 feet 2 inches and weigh exactly 70.96Kgs, used to
be 82 Kgs when I came back from the US. All I wrote in my previous
mail is a bunch of crap. I dont know why I wrote all that.........but I
did and I apologise for that. I am not the type who keeps hogging
24/7. yes, i do love different kinds of food items, thats true, and i also
love chocolates but its been months since i have eaten all that coz i
have been on a slimming programme for quite some time, which
helped me to reduce.Oh, by saying that the last mail was a crap, I
dont mean to suggest that i am a pretty girl or anything of that sort
..........well what does it matter how i look.I never expected any photos
from you nor did i ever intend to send you mine. But yes, there has
been this desire of hearing your voice and meeting you some day
somewhere.....................but i am not sure whether you would entertain
it. This also does not matter. Despite people asking me not to mail,
added to my fears and insecurities, i have continued mailing and
speaking to you, and will continue to do so..........that should say
something abt what i think of you.......i believed every word u said
.........maybe i should never have expressed all that i said over phone.
i think i have insulted you and also hurt u in a lot of ways. i dont know
if any apology would be sufficient, but i truly regret having said and felt
all those things. hope i will be forgiven. i've got nothing more to say R.
P.S. - Somehow, whatever i wanted to say to u over phone got lost
somewhere in our words. It just wasnt the fear that i wanted to talk
abt........i thought u would understand.........probably u didnt........or
maybe its my complete failure to express the right things at the right
time. i have always been bad at that..........even my fiance complains.
So i dont blame you, its just the way i am. But once again, sorry about
everything. In case u decide never to write back........may be i should
tell u this much:
Your mails will always remain with me as a memory, i will miss them
in my inbox...............they were my good companions..........i used to read
them like a storybook.........they make me feel good........and all that u
say about me..........well what can i say abt that. may be i should just
stop here.



kband - bok bok bok bokkom korey onek kothai to boley jao...
tobu na boleo bujhiye deowar khomota tomader achchey M....
etai aamar pawa, aamar sukh, aamar odbhut ek bhalolagaar
onubhuti. that makes two of us madhuri, the pleasure/pain is
mutual. oi je kobi-thakur likhechchilen -jare jai na pawa tari hawa
laaglo keno morey......
though i'm happy that u've been able to knock-off 10 kgs but don't
be overjoyed, it's still at least 5 kgs more than acceptable...so keep
at it (maybe not thinking about chocolates n icecream n ur earlier
binges may help, ha ha). but i would hv been much more pleased
had u given me some other stats and not these irrelevant ones:-))
so enjoy ur leave and try to regain ur composure, mera phone ka
bimaari zyadai lagtaa hai...i'll be leaving office around 2 pm, shall
mail u again before that.


(to be continued)

Ring Tones

(continued from the previous post dated 12th August)
In one of her previous mails, she had jokingly mentioned about
calling me up. Since I had her number, I decided to press the
initiative. There was a bit of a shock initially, both of us not
knowing what to say and it took time for the whole thing to
sink into our system.


kband - the way i've started plagiarising popular themes, very
soon someone may drag me to court! don't u worry, as true comrades
under a solemn vow, i will point you out as my partner-in-crime:-)
you can always say that you've only tried to become a sleeping
partner, i.e. not actively collaborating in my mis-adventures, but
the truth may eventually be unearthed that you had by no means
an insignificant role to play in inspiring the covert deeds ;-))
the phone is still resting, probably the excitement was a bit too
much for the poor gadget! i wonder what would have happened,
if i had kept it in the 'vibration' mode - it may have stirred itself
into a frenzy and leapt out of my hand into a nearby woman's
bosom!!!! next time i'll have to try that, is it alright M?
i just didn't know what to expect when i called u up y'day and when
i heard ur voice for the first time, it all seemed so unreal! the way u
started fumbling like a bumblebee, even a steady guy like me took
some time to recover from the sting:-) though the euphoria got over
even before it had started, i was able to register every bit of
modulation in your voice - it was much, much sweeter than i had ever
imagined ! and i simply had to imbibe it all over again before the day
ended. But sukhey badh sadhlo aamar phone, tobey not before i could
make out what a mast mast cheese (all milk and honey) you were:-))
aapka nazrana kabul kiya, shukriya. hey, i'm a dud as far as urdu is
concerned, so u've got your task cut out. for starters, along with the
exotic stuff which i can only get the flavour of at the moment, plz
translate the difficult words for me in a footnote. sorry for the trouble
but then maharana ka pasandila cheese:-) milney sey aapko inaam
mukammal ho sakta hai!
ki rokom pagol loker pallaye porley M. jodi tomar ghorey dhookey pori
chupichupi aar keu jaantey na paarey tobey aamar kopaley ki jootbey??




lea - It would be grt if someone drags you to court for any reason -
either for breaking traffic rules or for trying to creep into my bed-
room. Ki jutbe, sheta phone-e bolbo, i think u mentioned something
abt calling. how did the embassy trip go? why did u have to go
there ? r u planning to flee the country ?
U n ur phone both are "baaje", ki shob je lekhen, ki bolbo !!! shob
bujhi, aapni ai rokom-i joto baaje chinta mathaye ghore aapnar,
shei jonnoi to jaanlata bondho kore ghumoi, ke jaane baba ek baar
ghore dhukle amaar ki haal hobe!
amake flatter kore kore aaro mota kore deben dekhchi. once u call
me a bumble bee who stammers (I PROTEST, I JUST COULDNT
HEAR U THE FIRST TIME), and the next moment u say u could
register the modulations of my voice. when i didnt say anything what
did u hear ? And i know i dont have a sweet voice, its just another
ordinary voice. And you sound like ..................a flatterer!
Maha-rana ji, aapko inaam mehenga padega, sochke farmaiyega.
I will explain the meanings as i send the shers, but i hope u were
able to understand the ones i sent.



kband - I couldn't charge my cell probably coz the battery is dead
or something is wrong with the charger. Shall have to get it checked
sometime today, so we're back to where we probably belong - in the
realms of the mailing world:-) I've to go to an Embassy today so
decided to make it directly from home. Shall be leaving around 10
and then reach office later in the 2nd half. Let me try to make up
by calling you around 3 PM, is that ok M? Look forward to your
replies along with the expected mirch-masala.
So how did you sleep last night and why didn't you keep the bedroom
window open?



lea - Hmmmmm..........theek ache. call me whenever u want, i am in
office generally from 9 am - 6.30 pm. btw, y r u so obsessed with my
bedroom window ? let me tell you, my papa sleeps in the next room,
so u better be careful. agar jaag gaye na, to aisi pitai hogi ke...............
i did sleep well, though there were occassional images of someone
calling me, i am not joking, i did really feel that u were calling me.
i guess it was still fresh on my mind and i anyway have the habit of
dreaming abt anything and everything. mein almost daily sapne
dekhti hoon, abt all the things which happened during the day,
anything significant, and there it is in my dream...

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Tell me R, why do you make me feel like some goddess ? Whatever
I write, whatever I say.......u seem to love everything. I try to ignore
what u say lest, I start asking my own self some very difficult
questions : Am I worth all this, Am I misleading you etc etc.
Just tell me one thing.........I thought I'd never have to raise the topic
.......you must have made some impression in your mind about how
I look, havent you ?From what you write, and what you say you
think about me, I feel you have an image of someone who is very
"beautiful" in every sense of the word (physical beauty I mean).
But R, I am not at all the beauty you might be imagining about.
Well all these days I didnt think this was necessary, but after
speaking to you.............I was just wondering........if we ever happen
to meet, you will probably grimace at the mere sight of me, you will
probably never be able to match the face with the voice which you
find so sweet, you may just not want to write to me ever again
because my "not so beautiful face" would hover in front of your eyes
disrupting your otherwise beautiful thoughts.
So i thought it best to bring you to terms with some stark reality.
Rana, I am dark by complexion. I am just about 5 feet 1 inch, and
weigh 85 kgs. I apologise for misleading you by the "pleasantly
plump"description in my profile.....I am horribly overweight. I do
not possess a pretty face, because I have marks all over. This has
been a..........
This was what i was going to write to u....now u decide!



kband - You have no business to be 85 Kgs - didn't someone ever
tell you to stop gorging!!! These days there are all types of methods
to reduce weight - just walking on the terrace wouldn't do, you have
to spend more tine n effort to pull down drastically coz it may
adversely affect your health in later years. So take my advice M,
you have much much more than a slim chance to reduce if you're
serious about it.
As for me, I have written exactly the way I have felt about you
without any exaggeration. If physical beauty (in the conventional
sense) had too much importance to me, I would have asked for your
photograph long back and also would have sent you mine (didn't I
write about inhibitions earlier?) It's another matter if you'd ever
like to meet me just to share together all that we enjoy, even other-
wise I'm quite happy just the way we are at the moment. I think if I
say more than this, it might me construed as insincerity given the
way you have been conditioned all these years (not at all your fault)
but I'd like to assure you once again that you have nothing, I repeat
nothing, to fear from me except getting bombarded by my mails
every now and then:-)


(to be continued)

Jokes, Shayari & .......

(continued from the previous post dated 6th Aug)
The feverish oscillations settled down into a smoother wave-
form.....trying to subdue pent-up feelings with solemn pledges
......and what better way to amuse ourselves and enjoy!


lea - Dear R,ki aar boli tomay, aami nijei kichu uttor pai na.
hoyto erokom bondhu khooje berachchilam, eto kaal to pai ni......
bollam na hothat paoway chomke uthechi,bhoy hoy jodi hothat
kore abaar hariye jao. ei je tomar shathe, roj eto bok bok kori,
koto kotha shonai, tomar shei mysterious-self ta-ke obaak hoye
jaante cheshta kori...........ekta gaan mone pode gelo "poth harabo
bolei ebaar pothe nemechi, shoja pother dhadhaye aami onek
dhedhechi" - tumi-o hoyto e kothai bhabcho. bollam na, emon
emon shob hoyeche amaarjibon-e, boddo boka chilam jaano, koto
lok ke bishshash korechi, shokole thokiyeche........aami na college-e
bhalo mone kotha bolte jetam, tar porei shobai amake niye hasha
hashi korto, baaje baaje kotha bolto..............eto koshto peyechilam
na , tomake bojhate parbo na. jaak ge, o shob kothai dorkaar ki. aar
kokhkhono tomake shotti mithyer hishebe aanbo na. Obisshas
tomake kono din korini, keno jaanina, tumi jokhon jeta bolecho,
shetai bishash korechi, aar keno-i ba shudhu bhoy peye anondo-ta
ke maati korbo ?Aami to ekjon shadharon meye, ekke baare
shadharon, ontoto tumi amaar cheye dher dher bhalo. tumi IIT
theke pash kora, khoob biddan (jaano to IIT shunle kemon gaye
kaanta dei......hee hee hee), koto kichu jaano, eto bhalo chakri koro,
babba aaro koto ki........tomar moto bondhu peye, aami to khoob
khoob khushi. tai bolchilam, amaake je eto unchu sthan dichcho
tumi, aami ki er joggo ? achcha eshob kotha aaj thak. tomay paabo
bhabini........aar ekhon peye harate chaina........etuku jodi bujhe
thako, tahole amaar aar kichchu bolar nei. Aar aami roilam tomar
pashe, tomar bondhu hoye, jokhon-i chaibe , kachei pabe, dekhi
tomar black aar white aar grey-r modhdhe kothai amaake jaiga
dao ;-)) M
(ebaar kintu shombodhon-e bhul korini,abaar bujhchoto)



kband - Ei poth jodi na shesh hoi...........tobey kintu khoob ekta
bhalo hoye na :-) I hate to admit it M, but then that's the startling
reality. We're bound to our individual destinies, poth hariye
kachakachi choley eshechi ebong porosporer ameje bibhor holeo,
let's not lose sight of it. We need to cling on to each other for hope,
for survival at this moment of reckoning ! Others depend on us,
damn it!!There's a lot that we need to know from each other,
we've just started scratching the surface. That's why I need you
by my side, as my navigator, in our search for the inner joy of
living ! We've only just begun, M. You're a great girl in your own
simple, intelligent, honest, caring way and that's why everybody
loves you. A friend like you means a lot to me than just a mutual
admiration of the things we like....it's much, much more and come
on, let's find all that out ourselves!! Aar jedin tumi amaakey
haraatey chaibey, sheidin aami apna thekei hariye jabo....tar agey]
kokkhono noi. amaar lokkhi M, eei protisruti-te dujoney boddho
holam.


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See I have no intention to thokofy a boka meye, tai shurutei
shob kholakhuli boley di. I thought you were in sync with the
contract and have extracted what you wanted from me, but
kothar chaturi tey amaakey bhuliye nijer aar kichchu kheyali
nei jeno:-) You've left everything at the mercy of my imagination,
including your birthdate!
I read a funny joke y'day and I felt I had to share it with you right
now (I'm very poor at remembering them). It's something like this:
The old lady in a family is left at a nursing home by the other
members who feel that she'll be properly cared for there. The
nurses are very kind to the old lady and bathe her, clothe her, feed
her quite well. Then they make her sit on a chair in front of a
window which overlooks a beautiful garden. The old lady sits there
quietly enjoying the scene and the fresh air. Then she starts tilting
away to one side. The nurses immediately rush to her rescue and
make her sit upright once again. All's well for some time but again
she tilts to the other side. The nurses are there in a flash and help
her sit erect. This routine then keeps continuing - tilting and nurses
holding her to sit straight. Next day the family members come and
enquire from the old lady whether she is being looked after properly.
The lady replies - yes, they've been very nice, but they just won't
let me fart !



lea - chee chee R, baaje joke ! ekdom baaje !Aar aami ki aapnake
thokiye phone no -ta niyechi naaki? aami ek baar-o aapnar kache
number chai ni, nijei to gorgor kore bole gelen aar ekhon holo
amaar dosh ? aar amaar phone number-ta niye hobe ta ki shuni?
birthdate-ta ki amaar profile-e nei ? ke jane profile-tai to ekta
baaje jinish. jaakge, amaar bdate holo : Big B -r bday ar amaar
same.....ebaar use ur google! year tao ki jante chaan? the year
Sholay was released, so now u know why i wanted to marry AB
once:-)) i enjoy urdu sher-o-shayari a lot, got a good collection,
in case u r also a fan lemme know, i could send u some good stuff.
Aapnake jodi dhorun phone korlam, kotha bolben naaki rekhe
deben?



kband - Ohh i love every ada of yours, kya baat hai! So where's
the boka meye disapperared now, incidentally I have a soft
corner for her too:-))
I didn't know you didn't enjoy farting or farting jokes. I do that
all the time (IIT guys can't fart or what?) only thing I don't keep
tilting in my seat like you do :-)
Oh, you should've told me you liked rugby jokes, I have a good
collection of them, I can write them myself too. Wanna check
them out ?:-))
Jokes apart, what're you waiting for sending me those urdu
couplets? They are absolutely the best thing to happen to mankind
(second best, after me)! They just may make me swoon (as if
you've not done so already) so I'm eagerly awaiting a hand-picked
guldasta from you. Khuda Hafiz,R



lea - Intaha-e-intazaar khatam hua jata hai, Kuch aap ko batane
ko dil bekaraar hua jata hai.
" Do Jawan diloon ka gam, Doorian samajhti hain ,
Kaun yaad karta hai, hichkiyaan samajhti hain
Utarti hai jab baam-e-falak se haseen taushida,
Husn ki nazaakat ko seediyaan samajhti hai"


(to be continued)

The Onset of Pain

(continued from the post dated 30th July)
A subtle pain had started. Its origins were unknown, its true
nature was also incomprehensible, but it had an unmistakeable
presence in the restless waiting, in the yearning for together-
-ness, in the strains of music echoing in the ears.


lea - Theek ache theek ache dekha jaabe............aapko aapki
tanhai mubarak ho !! btw, my papa calls me maamburi, and
not mamoni. and i am not going to crib abt u to him, i am a big
girl now, and i can have my own way. my pain in the back just
refuses to go away, like you..........i am having trouble sitting,
standing, sleeping, whatever i do. imagine, i seem to have lost
my appetite also. anyway, dont want to talk abt bimari anymore.
so how was ur week end. i did nothing, went to the dentist, i am
to have a root canal coming thursday. the dentist would be in
for a nasty experience, i am known to throw many doctors off
gear. as a child when i got my ears pierced for the first time,
some labourers working on telephone cable laying on the road
had to come and hold my limbs, so the doctor could go ahead.
and very recently i made the poor compounder at wockhardt
change his syringe by cribbing and crying and the tale continues.
got a lot of work to do today in office, will get back to u later. tata..
kaalke na ekta fatafati gaan shunlaam(robindroshongeet of course)
"bhalobeshe shokhi, nibhrito ...., naamti amaar mone rekho, tomar
mono mondire" kotha gulo bhoolbhaal hoyegelo.........tumi jodi
gaanta jaano tahole plz ektu line gulo theek kore pathiyo, nahole
amaake online geetobitan refer korte hobe, maane my papa!
aarekta gaan jaano "bhalo kore tumi cheye dekho.......(something
in b/w).....chinte paro kina" - kaar gaowa gaanta bolo to? aami
janina. eta-r o pooro line-ta ta pathiyo kintu.



kband - eei rey khaisey ! i told you i'm just a music-freak,
nothing else (despite all my pretensions to show otherwise)
and now u're coming up with these musiquiz (kotha, surokar,
geetikar, baap re!!) probably to test the depth of my knowledge
:-( maybe i should run while i still have a chance. jodiyo tomar
kachche hereo sukh M, tobu I can't throw in the towel so easily.
particularly when the net is there with its repository of musical
resources which i've made use of time and again :-) then i can
take credit for all that claiming that nothing fades from my
memories! but no such luck this time, the net failed me so i've
to fall back on my poor old brain :
1. lata mangeshkar - bhalo korey tumi cheye dekho, dekhoto
chintey paro kinaa, amar du chokhey chokh rekhey dekho bajey
ki bajey na monobina....shonali bikeley gachcher chhaye mukho
mukhi boshey neel sondhyaye jibonanondo shonabey ke aar,
shei aami aaj tumi heena....(there's some more, can't remember
now, maybe later)
2. bhalobeshey shokhi nivrito jotoney aamar naamti likho
tomar monero mondirey (bas, that's all I know, what a pity
that I can't refer to my ma who's a good singer but in bangalore
now with my sister)...a telefilm which i watched partly y'day
had this song, is that where u heard it ? guess as always, u've
to refer to your papa - he seems to be an extraordinary person!
i would love to meet him but then perhaps i should not....i
remember when a girl from my locality took me to meet her
papa and he started asking me history questions....he was a
history professor u see, and he perhaps used this trick to drive
away the romeos from his daughter. But to my misfortune I
could successfully face the onslaught and he got so impressed
that he wanted me to visit him regularly to discuss about the
kushans, the guptas, the satvahanas.....i still get the creeps:-)
i'm not implying for a moment that history would repeat itself,
but why take chances?:-))
i think u should see a specialist urgently for ur backache, i can
u'stand how awful u must be feeling and i can do so little about it
...add to it the dental trauma that u're saddled with (thanks to
your choco-mania!) and there u have the docs (and many others
around him) with their hands full:-)
i see that u were probably not relishing the tumi/aapni joga
khichuri which had become quite a feast for the eyes and have
reverted to the plain vanilla sombodhon (i should not be
reminding u about icecreams!), it's been a lot of trouble for u, but
then maybe i'm worth it (ha ha ha)!



lea - Worth it na aaro kichu !!! ek baar bhool kore tumi bole
felechi ki ek dom khush te dogomogo !!! hi hengla chele re baba
........hee hee! Thank you thank you thank you so so so much for
all the lyrics !!! Uff hats off to ur memory. i have rarely met
anyone who has so much knowledge abt so many things, really
i am not flattering you but...u r truly amazing. arre theek
dhorecho, it was in y'days telefilm that i also heard the song,
in fact it was only for that song that i was sitting and watching
inspite of the pain. key geyeche janen ? indranil sen chilo ki?
my papa (thanks for all the compliments) knows the song, and
i am going to learn it from him. the film also had my other
favourite "amaar shokol niye", but then after having heard
konika sing it, i didnt like yesterday's rendition. i wanna learn
that too, but its sooo difficult. ei tumi bangal na ki ??? aami
kintu GHOTI , tomar ghoti hata blouse-r moto ;-))!!!
hee hee it was so funny to hear abt ur tryst with history!! dont
worry my papa isnt like that, u will find him very endearing,
just like ME who else? funny thing happened y'day, when i
was telling ma abt all the good e-pals i have (most of all u),
she said "ki hobe bhalo chele niye amaar, tumi ja korar korei
felecho" (baap re, she still hasnt adjusted to thefact that my
fiance is a telugu).... aapnar shonge jokhon dekha hobe aami
kintu oi gaantai gaibo : bhalo korey tumi cheye dekho, dekhoto
chintey paro kina" , that would be such a grt code word isnt it?
ishshsh, dekhun to aami ki boka, abbar aapnake kolkataye tene
aanlum. i think i should stop saying all this lest u start suspecting
i belong to some gang trying to kidnap u or something. i would
love to hear ur mother sing some day (oh distant dream), may
be she would teach me some songs. so u have a sis, is she married
and settled in blore? Do u have any more bros and sis?


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Aaj koyekta ichche holo, kintu ektao puron korteparlam na,
ba holo na bolte paren..........
1)Khoob jaante ichche holo je kotar shomoy aapnioffice-e ashen?
Ki kaaj/okaaj koren, kenoi ba aaj aapnar mail ashche na?
2)kotar shomoy badi jaan, kothai thaken, badi phire ki koren?
3)last but not the least, ekta sms korar prochondoichche holo,
aapnar mobile no ta to achei, kintu shahosh holo na........naa
aapni amaar no ta jaante parben shei bhoy noy, bhoy-ta onno
karone pelam. jak ge.........koto baar je mail khulchi aar bondho
korchi, tar ra nei ko. aaj ki potralaap hoibe na ?
aarekta kotha boli, jodi obhoy den to. kokhono kohkono bhoy
hoy je jodi konodin jaante pari aapni miththe, aapnaar shobtai
miththe, tahole kintu bhenge podbo. ei bondhutter shobtai to
bishwas er opor tai na ? aami-o miththe hote paari, kintu hoyto
aapni she bhabe aghaat pabenna, karon aapni hoyto sheta
aandaaj kore neben ebong prostut thakben, aami kintu eke
barei prostut noi. oboshsho aami borabor-i erokom, ek dom
boka. kotobaar je thokechi, ki bolbo, tai shokole amaake niye
chinta kore. aami khoob taratari involve hoye jai, kintu toto
deri hoy bhoolte. thaak, aar aapnar matha khabo na, boka
meyer boka boka kotha gulo kintu ekebaare gaye makhben
na, eituku onurodh rakhben. bondhu hishebe etuku prappo
amar nishchoi ache. ashaye roilam.........



kband - dear madhuri, i've not been too busy but then i
thought u were, so i felt it would be better that i don't disturb
u for some time. it now seems that u are as it is quite
disturbed - some of course due to your painful condition,
but much of it for quite incomprehensible reasons. ki eto
shotti-mitther kathgoraye eshe daralam boloto aamra! eto
ta abeg shudhu shamanyo ektu bondhutter jonyo - eta ki
rokom korey hoi??? i can't ask this to you as i have been
asking this question repeatedly to myself for so many days
now and frankly haven't been able to come up with a semblance
of an answer. there's something about you which makes you
endearing to everybody else including me, but then i'm an
alien to your world - i'm trying to strike a chord somewhere
so that i can aspire for a level-playing field despite all the
disparities, the contrasts, the distance and the anonymity. if
there is any mystery in what i say, it is just to keep your
interest alive otherwise one day i fear that i might get discarded
as there's nothing more in me to arouse your curiosity.
there's no mitthye in what i've told u or what u've known about
me so far (including my profile) and realising your child-like
nature, i've consciously tried to avoid making things more
complicated except where i wished to tickle your grey matter
a bit:-) to me u are a pure and gold-hearted girl, so it beats me
why you should be mitthye at all!
though i'm khushi-tey godo-godo that u find me amazing, i've
seen enough in my life to tell u that u are hallucinating M:-)
there are hordes and hordes of truly outstanding people in this
world of whom i'm not even nokher juggi. yes i'd aspired to be
like them but then i had to rationalise later and re-adjust my
goals. but why am i telling u all this ? coz i want you to know
me better (in complete shades of black, white and grey) and
help me in becoming your true friend - i need you very, very
badly! as for me, like your other friends, i'd also try to be at your
side whenever and however you'd want me.


(to be continued)