The Onset of Pain

(continued from the post dated 30th July)
A subtle pain had started. Its origins were unknown, its true
nature was also incomprehensible, but it had an unmistakeable
presence in the restless waiting, in the yearning for together-
-ness, in the strains of music echoing in the ears.


lea - Theek ache theek ache dekha jaabe............aapko aapki
tanhai mubarak ho !! btw, my papa calls me maamburi, and
not mamoni. and i am not going to crib abt u to him, i am a big
girl now, and i can have my own way. my pain in the back just
refuses to go away, like you..........i am having trouble sitting,
standing, sleeping, whatever i do. imagine, i seem to have lost
my appetite also. anyway, dont want to talk abt bimari anymore.
so how was ur week end. i did nothing, went to the dentist, i am
to have a root canal coming thursday. the dentist would be in
for a nasty experience, i am known to throw many doctors off
gear. as a child when i got my ears pierced for the first time,
some labourers working on telephone cable laying on the road
had to come and hold my limbs, so the doctor could go ahead.
and very recently i made the poor compounder at wockhardt
change his syringe by cribbing and crying and the tale continues.
got a lot of work to do today in office, will get back to u later. tata..
kaalke na ekta fatafati gaan shunlaam(robindroshongeet of course)
"bhalobeshe shokhi, nibhrito ...., naamti amaar mone rekho, tomar
mono mondire" kotha gulo bhoolbhaal hoyegelo.........tumi jodi
gaanta jaano tahole plz ektu line gulo theek kore pathiyo, nahole
amaake online geetobitan refer korte hobe, maane my papa!
aarekta gaan jaano "bhalo kore tumi cheye dekho.......(something
in b/w).....chinte paro kina" - kaar gaowa gaanta bolo to? aami
janina. eta-r o pooro line-ta ta pathiyo kintu.



kband - eei rey khaisey ! i told you i'm just a music-freak,
nothing else (despite all my pretensions to show otherwise)
and now u're coming up with these musiquiz (kotha, surokar,
geetikar, baap re!!) probably to test the depth of my knowledge
:-( maybe i should run while i still have a chance. jodiyo tomar
kachche hereo sukh M, tobu I can't throw in the towel so easily.
particularly when the net is there with its repository of musical
resources which i've made use of time and again :-) then i can
take credit for all that claiming that nothing fades from my
memories! but no such luck this time, the net failed me so i've
to fall back on my poor old brain :
1. lata mangeshkar - bhalo korey tumi cheye dekho, dekhoto
chintey paro kinaa, amar du chokhey chokh rekhey dekho bajey
ki bajey na monobina....shonali bikeley gachcher chhaye mukho
mukhi boshey neel sondhyaye jibonanondo shonabey ke aar,
shei aami aaj tumi heena....(there's some more, can't remember
now, maybe later)
2. bhalobeshey shokhi nivrito jotoney aamar naamti likho
tomar monero mondirey (bas, that's all I know, what a pity
that I can't refer to my ma who's a good singer but in bangalore
now with my sister)...a telefilm which i watched partly y'day
had this song, is that where u heard it ? guess as always, u've
to refer to your papa - he seems to be an extraordinary person!
i would love to meet him but then perhaps i should not....i
remember when a girl from my locality took me to meet her
papa and he started asking me history questions....he was a
history professor u see, and he perhaps used this trick to drive
away the romeos from his daughter. But to my misfortune I
could successfully face the onslaught and he got so impressed
that he wanted me to visit him regularly to discuss about the
kushans, the guptas, the satvahanas.....i still get the creeps:-)
i'm not implying for a moment that history would repeat itself,
but why take chances?:-))
i think u should see a specialist urgently for ur backache, i can
u'stand how awful u must be feeling and i can do so little about it
...add to it the dental trauma that u're saddled with (thanks to
your choco-mania!) and there u have the docs (and many others
around him) with their hands full:-)
i see that u were probably not relishing the tumi/aapni joga
khichuri which had become quite a feast for the eyes and have
reverted to the plain vanilla sombodhon (i should not be
reminding u about icecreams!), it's been a lot of trouble for u, but
then maybe i'm worth it (ha ha ha)!



lea - Worth it na aaro kichu !!! ek baar bhool kore tumi bole
felechi ki ek dom khush te dogomogo !!! hi hengla chele re baba
........hee hee! Thank you thank you thank you so so so much for
all the lyrics !!! Uff hats off to ur memory. i have rarely met
anyone who has so much knowledge abt so many things, really
i am not flattering you but...u r truly amazing. arre theek
dhorecho, it was in y'days telefilm that i also heard the song,
in fact it was only for that song that i was sitting and watching
inspite of the pain. key geyeche janen ? indranil sen chilo ki?
my papa (thanks for all the compliments) knows the song, and
i am going to learn it from him. the film also had my other
favourite "amaar shokol niye", but then after having heard
konika sing it, i didnt like yesterday's rendition. i wanna learn
that too, but its sooo difficult. ei tumi bangal na ki ??? aami
kintu GHOTI , tomar ghoti hata blouse-r moto ;-))!!!
hee hee it was so funny to hear abt ur tryst with history!! dont
worry my papa isnt like that, u will find him very endearing,
just like ME who else? funny thing happened y'day, when i
was telling ma abt all the good e-pals i have (most of all u),
she said "ki hobe bhalo chele niye amaar, tumi ja korar korei
felecho" (baap re, she still hasnt adjusted to thefact that my
fiance is a telugu).... aapnar shonge jokhon dekha hobe aami
kintu oi gaantai gaibo : bhalo korey tumi cheye dekho, dekhoto
chintey paro kina" , that would be such a grt code word isnt it?
ishshsh, dekhun to aami ki boka, abbar aapnake kolkataye tene
aanlum. i think i should stop saying all this lest u start suspecting
i belong to some gang trying to kidnap u or something. i would
love to hear ur mother sing some day (oh distant dream), may
be she would teach me some songs. so u have a sis, is she married
and settled in blore? Do u have any more bros and sis?


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Aaj koyekta ichche holo, kintu ektao puron korteparlam na,
ba holo na bolte paren..........
1)Khoob jaante ichche holo je kotar shomoy aapnioffice-e ashen?
Ki kaaj/okaaj koren, kenoi ba aaj aapnar mail ashche na?
2)kotar shomoy badi jaan, kothai thaken, badi phire ki koren?
3)last but not the least, ekta sms korar prochondoichche holo,
aapnar mobile no ta to achei, kintu shahosh holo na........naa
aapni amaar no ta jaante parben shei bhoy noy, bhoy-ta onno
karone pelam. jak ge.........koto baar je mail khulchi aar bondho
korchi, tar ra nei ko. aaj ki potralaap hoibe na ?
aarekta kotha boli, jodi obhoy den to. kokhono kohkono bhoy
hoy je jodi konodin jaante pari aapni miththe, aapnaar shobtai
miththe, tahole kintu bhenge podbo. ei bondhutter shobtai to
bishwas er opor tai na ? aami-o miththe hote paari, kintu hoyto
aapni she bhabe aghaat pabenna, karon aapni hoyto sheta
aandaaj kore neben ebong prostut thakben, aami kintu eke
barei prostut noi. oboshsho aami borabor-i erokom, ek dom
boka. kotobaar je thokechi, ki bolbo, tai shokole amaake niye
chinta kore. aami khoob taratari involve hoye jai, kintu toto
deri hoy bhoolte. thaak, aar aapnar matha khabo na, boka
meyer boka boka kotha gulo kintu ekebaare gaye makhben
na, eituku onurodh rakhben. bondhu hishebe etuku prappo
amar nishchoi ache. ashaye roilam.........



kband - dear madhuri, i've not been too busy but then i
thought u were, so i felt it would be better that i don't disturb
u for some time. it now seems that u are as it is quite
disturbed - some of course due to your painful condition,
but much of it for quite incomprehensible reasons. ki eto
shotti-mitther kathgoraye eshe daralam boloto aamra! eto
ta abeg shudhu shamanyo ektu bondhutter jonyo - eta ki
rokom korey hoi??? i can't ask this to you as i have been
asking this question repeatedly to myself for so many days
now and frankly haven't been able to come up with a semblance
of an answer. there's something about you which makes you
endearing to everybody else including me, but then i'm an
alien to your world - i'm trying to strike a chord somewhere
so that i can aspire for a level-playing field despite all the
disparities, the contrasts, the distance and the anonymity. if
there is any mystery in what i say, it is just to keep your
interest alive otherwise one day i fear that i might get discarded
as there's nothing more in me to arouse your curiosity.
there's no mitthye in what i've told u or what u've known about
me so far (including my profile) and realising your child-like
nature, i've consciously tried to avoid making things more
complicated except where i wished to tickle your grey matter
a bit:-) to me u are a pure and gold-hearted girl, so it beats me
why you should be mitthye at all!
though i'm khushi-tey godo-godo that u find me amazing, i've
seen enough in my life to tell u that u are hallucinating M:-)
there are hordes and hordes of truly outstanding people in this
world of whom i'm not even nokher juggi. yes i'd aspired to be
like them but then i had to rationalise later and re-adjust my
goals. but why am i telling u all this ? coz i want you to know
me better (in complete shades of black, white and grey) and
help me in becoming your true friend - i need you very, very
badly! as for me, like your other friends, i'd also try to be at your
side whenever and however you'd want me.


(to be continued)