Love....this feeling

(continued from previous post dated 17th Nov '05)
The thought of her being in pain caused a swell of emotions in
me and I wrote to her about my concern and wished her
enduring happiness and comfort. She may have been mildly
surprised.


lea - ba bah ! eto kichu !!!!!!!!!!amaar preme pode gele naaki?
heeheehehehee hahahahaha !!!u r sho shweet !!! thanks a lot
buddy. wish u also the same.



kband - M, aami jani tumi kebol ek morichika. jotoi kachey eshey
jawar bhaan koro na keno, tumi to asholey sudoor ek jogot-er
duronto protipholon matro! nimeshey bileen hoye jawai e
akorshoner chorom porinoti. tobu pothbhola ek pothik jokhon
jibon-trishnaye akul hoye othey, tokhon shei moher sommohon
taar protiti rondhrey rondhrey chheye jai, aar oleek obastob ek
aasha bookey niye shey chhootey choley shei taan-e.......
sukothin niyotir bondhon taakey ashtey prishthey jodiye dhorey,
porey shey jai thik-i, tobu shei sobujer probol haathchhani jeno
aar ekbaar uthey daranor shesh rosod-tuku jotate chai.........
rukkho prithibir uttopto baluka-shojjai pothik shudhu ek haath
badiye dei shunyotar dikey........



lea - Hey premikbor, dhatt bhool hoye gelo :-)hey pothikbor,
tomar daake kemone di shara.......mor kache je kichui nai,
tomare kemone kori udhdhar, tomar uttopto baluka shojja hoite?
aami to keboli ek shamanya naari, amaar to kichui nai.
baap re, amaar dara er beshi shahityo hobe na. aar aami to shoja
kothar manush. hmmmmm, tomar kotha gulo bujhte parchi, kintu
R, amaar to upay nei.....morichika na hoye amaar ki upay ache bolo?
shob-i to jaano.....shotti amaar debar kichui nei, shudhu okaron
hashi, ektu obhimaan, ektu raag....eshob chara aar ki dite pari bolo?
aar shudhu shudhu tomake maya-r jaale jodateo chai na. ki tumi
bhabo tumi-i jaano, aami oto bujhte pari na, tai bhoy hoy, kono
bhool kore phelchi na to, kono miththye asha dichchi na to tomai?
kono bhabei tomake aghaat dite chai na, tai bolchi, amar kaach
theke kichhu asha koro na......... bondhuttor urdhe jaowar amaar
kono upay nei. jaanina, ki shob likhe phellam, tried my best to
explain.........hope u will understand. aaj obdhi amaar ei shob lekha
keu bujhte pareni (imagine, people complain i write cryptic mails,
they havent read urs), well since u r more durbodhdho than me,
asha korchi tumi amaar kotha bujhe nebe.Tomar M........
P.S. - Ei shono, tomake ebaar mail-e shombhodhon ta Premik
bolei korbo bhabchi ! heheeheheehe !!!hahahaha!
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Paaji kothakar, aami bhoy morchi, aar tumi ? phokla tokla
kichchu noy, amaar to notun daat hobe. phoklatumi !!!Ei shono,
aami tomake buro buro boli bole, plz kichu mone koro na, i
never mean to hurt u believe me. i just want to pull ur leg and
i think u know that. 27 or 37or 47, jai hok, tumi to tumi-i aar
shetai aami chai. jai ektu jhaalmuri kheye ashi, khide peye geche.
Ashbe naaki ?



kband - M name means 'satin' which means silky and that means
I'm soft and like sensual means of getting the meaning of things
which mean everything to me! I hope you have the means to
understand what I mean, don't you M? It's not a tongue-twister,
I know already you have enough oral problems which could get
further compounded with such gibberish. Then you'll start
contorting your sweet face as if you'd had a bitter pill and then
our nascent relationship could easily turn sour. It's only a feeble
attempt at breaking your stupor which you may have lapsed into
with those anaesthetic shots - so how'z it been, how many people
had to pin you down this time (maybe you yelled so loud that the
dentist could easily walk into your mouth:-)), are you still
benumbed....so why aren't you telling me???
The prayers are getting answered, woke up today to dark clouds
and soothing drizzle, still soaking it in, but tomaar dekha nai...
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ekta jinish jaani na - tumi sobai ke valentine's day-te golap pathao
keno ? onek maalir proyojon podechche :-)? will be going for a
presentation at 2pm, pls try mailing me before that..aar tomar
kono kothaye aami kokhono kichchcu kharap feel kori na, tai
boltey kono hesitate korbey na....aamar monta tomaar ontorongey
naholey probesh korey ki bhaabey M?



lea - Well, u already know that i didnt go to the dentist, so i am
not going to write anything abt that. oh so ur name means "silk"
haan ? Silk Smitha r u heheeheehee !!!!!!!! Oops, sorry, guess i
overdid it. okay lemme be serious. hmmmmmm, i was wondering
whether u could also tell me the meaning of my name, many people
have asked and i really didnt have an answer. So please dear R,
amaar namer meaning-ta ektu jodi bole dito paro bhalo hoy.
(my actual name not the shadher naam ja tumi diyecho)
Aar ki shob sensual fensual bolecho, aami oshob-er kichchu
bujhii na :-))
Why did u suddenly ask me abt the valentine roses? I need to
know.......there is a reason i am asking.....u got to tell me why
that came to ur mind. I am scared again R........y do u scare me?
The second after getting that mail of urs, someone in the next
cubicle was talking abt valentine's day and roses, i dont know
if its some mail which is doing its round on the net or a sheer
coincidence which made this topic come up at this time of the
year, from 2 completely different sources, and why i should be
the listener to both........God u scare me R, u really do. As much
as i try not to think abt all that, as much as i try to put up a
bold front.........u somehow manage to scare me. may be its not
ur fault........but i just cant help it. i am extremely sorry, but.....
dont bother R, this will pass, just go and attend ur presentation...
all the best !!
I suddenly remembered, why in my first mail to u, i had replied
something like "not interested in emotional attachments".
I think i am beginning to understand u.....or at least
"somethings" abt u. hmmmm, aaj tahole ekhanei shesh
korchi, aar jalabo na.



kband - I had resolved - no gaan, no gyan. But these have been
my achilles heel, my anchors in life. Without them, there's
nothing but emptiness within me and there's no better feeling
than surrendering at the altar of my weaknesses. I couldn't also
abruptly stop writing to you, I do realize what our mails mean
to us....that's the only way perhaps to mitigate the pain. You
need not worry at all about causing any hurt to me, I have
developed an immunity from it, believe me. While I do anything
with passion, at the same time I am capable of insulating myself
from my environment with an impermeable layer. Now that's
enough of I, me and my ego trip....
Thanks for the e-greetings sent by you, it was really cute, quite
like you. Its form, content, expressions, characterised every
nuance of your alluring self! I'm not very sure what your name
means, your Baba will know better, but maybe it stands for
merger - an intermingling of the forces of nature! Whatever it
means, you've got to be "leaner" but of course, never "mum" :-)
Keep your spirits soaring, that's what everyone needs from you,
and go for your dreams - you can count me among your well-
wishers always...aaro kichchu nahi chai go.....



lea - Dear R, Sorry abt everything, also for not able to give u ur
surprise.........may be some other time.....when u call me and i am
not in office. But then u cant call me after your office hrs even i
cant so ........ the surprise will have to wait. last but not the least,
amaake ebhabe call korte thakle tomar chakrita kintu jaabe,
unless u r some dada in ur company. kenoi ba amaake ebhabe
call koro bujhi na. chhata, kichui to bujhi na, othocho bondhutto
korar shokh holo. aaro hajar-ta loke to e-friendship kore, koi tader
friends-ra to tader roj roj call korena? sheikhanei to bhoy hoy........
keno call koro amaake ? off eshob boleo abaar bipod, hoyto call-i
korbe na aar. na korlei ba ki ? amar boyei geche :-))
achcha shobai jaante paarle tokhon ki hobe?
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Ei R, ke boleche aami shobai-ke golap pathai ? abaar goendagiri
shuru korecho , bhable bhoy peye jaabo? Aami kauke golap pathai
na except for my fiance. Ebaar theke tomakeo pathabo naaki?
Aar amaar maalir khoje tomar ki dorkaar? bhalo kotha mone
koriye dile: 2002 val's day i gave flowers to all my male
colleagues in the US. u should have seen their faces, they were
so shocked!! most were getting flowers for the first time. one more
thing, i dont think val's day is meant only for lovers, its meant for
spreading love- could be even ur parents! And thanks for the
license to say anything...........ebaar moja paabe !!
btw, amaar monta tomar ontoronger kon stage-e ache?


(to be continued)