True Colours

(continued from previous post dated 1st July)
Black soon dissipated with the dazzling aura of many-
splendoured charms and fond reminiscing brought back
the original hues of our lives. I was keen to know what
kept her in the best of spirits always.....

lea - See, theres no reason for me to be sad (touch gold).
I have a wonderful family, not only my parents but all my
family members (dida, dadu theku shuru kore kaku, pishi,
mashi, mama, even friends) everyone loves me. Its not that
i am an extraordinary person, but i have been simply lucky
u can say. I have also been lucky in love.....my fiancee... i
met him in college.....and since then we have been together
.........like friends, like enemies (we fight all the time) like
partners, and he has filled my life with nothing but
happiness. And of course i have wonderful friends who are
always there to support me whenever i want, they wont
even ask me any questions, they would just do. As far as
my professional life is concerned, i am working in a good
company, earning quite well, i have made few foreign trips
also (thats also one criteria for people nowadays:-)) So
whats there for me to be sad about ? what else can i ask
for? not that there have been no setbacks in my life, there
have been, and i have also had to struggle, but then thats a
part of life. This is all R..........but why do u ask ? Listen its
not necessary that u be as cheerful as i am, maybe u have
real problems and they are much more serious than mine
ever were........see if i dont know what ur problem is i wont
be able to comment in fact i should not. Kintu holo ta ki
aapnar aaj ? Eto keno depressed? Amar kono bhool hoy ni
to? aar suspense na badiye,bolun kichu...



kband - Are you a magician M, or a shrink (oops Monos-
tottobid) ? You must have some jadoo in what you say and
what you do that makes others cheerful and they keep you
happy in return. Otherwise, how does all my blues disappear
as soon as you are back with me ???You are so naive that
even for all the complications that I am beset with, you think
you are responsible ? You try your best to help me, give all
you can to make me feel better and still wonder if anything's
wrong with you ? Yes I hold you guilty for being so late :-)
but am also pleased that the rest has given you some relief!
You are lucky M, I really envy you ! Otherwise there are lots
of people who have all that you got and much more and are
still searching for that elusive pot of gold at the end of the
rainbow, believe me. Its something to do with expectations
perhaps...anyway nothing for a pure, simple and genuine
person like you need to know anything about. I never
expected to find a person like you here, I always felt that
this is a place for satiating unfulfilled desires (in various
forms) and maybe I'm just one of them ! My aim was to
provide solace to others while seeking happiness and peace
in the process. How you've turned the tables and effectively
preached the preacher in your own unique style! I'm grateful
to have you as my friend and would try to become worthy of
your friendship. Thanks a lot, Madhuri



lea - I dont know what to say.........I know how painful it
must have been for you, and its still now probably. But
didnt u keep in touch with her after u came to calcutta?
And why didnt u want to marry her if you loved her so
much........was it because ur family and hers wouldnt
accept you alliance ? Oh, silly me, i am sure you both would
have thought of everyhting, moreover marriage is not the
only thing in life. But dont you write to her now ? Do u at
least know where she is now, whether she is married, and
what she is doing? U know R, my fiance is a telugu brahmin,
and I am a bengali non brahmin. They are veg, and we are
pakka NV, moreover he is younger to me (8 months)..........
for the last 5 years i have lived in such a nightmare.....i never
ever thought that our parents would accept, in fact in the
beginning they didnt at all. i waited waited and waited........
and then finally the issues were raised at both places. And
touch gold, this time they understood (i still feel scared
though)................just cant tell you how all that felt...........i
used to cry for hours and days thinking what i'd do if they
didnt agree. We had decided one thing, that we wouldnt
marry if our parents didnt agree, just couldnt think of
eloping and hurting them. but then we knew that we would
never ever marry anyone else in our lifetime. Oh i can only
thank god and my parents and the well wishes of all our
friends that it has now become possible for me to dream of
our marriage..........u brought tears to my eyes today...........
ur life n times as well as mine..........so this inconsequential
chapter has done one thing.............it has brought us closer
as friends, that much i can say.........
Dear R, i am not going to give any gyan, but if it ever makes
u feel better to share ur sorrows, or just mundane
happenings.........please dont hesitate...of course i may not be
able to do anything but be a sounding board...........I am going
to wish and pray for ur happiness and peace. And i am also
going to ask you to give me back my reckless, headless,
shameless f"R"iend........U could treat this as a command :-))
and better follow!! tanahole bhalo hobe na bole dichchi kintu!
bhalo theko.........



kband - I am touched by your empathy though I never
wanted you to be sad ever. However you never cease to
amaze me with your grittiness and spirit. I see shades of
Kalpana Chawla in you. Not in any fatalistic way, the
comparison just came to me, having read so much about
her and how she reached all that heights through sheer
belief in herself and what she wanted from life ! I had
realised that you seem to feel a bit insecure (don't ask me
how) and now I understand. You've stood firmly on
slippery grounds (where others like me had to bite the dust)
and I wish you both all the very best for a grand future !!!!!
Let me tell you, in today's circumstances, love(whatever that
means) has to be an inextricable part of married life and
that's what helps you in ironing out the wrinkles else you
get locked in a dungeon of perpetual misery (that's why to
some 'marriage' is a word and to others a sentence). So,
you are on the right track M, and knowing you, I'm certain
that you won't make anyone anything else but happy.
I am an intense type of person, so for all your liking for me
(my mails), I may sometimes get a bit carried away. Please
don't misunderstand me then, I have nothing but warm
sentiments for you always, particularly as you have come
closer to me with a 'tumi sombodhon' (mistake?). So let's
forget the blues and enjoy ourselves -Aaj ki anondo akashey
batashey:-)


(to be continued)