A Mini Storm

(continued from previous post dated 7th March)

My brain had started working overtime. I wanted to
show how I smart I really was.


kband - MMMMMMMadhuri (the keyboard got stuck
giving the Sharukh effect),I told you that you have this
uncanny ability to send me back in time (it does wonders
to my cardiac condition), yup I'd been to Shantiniketan
once. Not to look for peace, not for the love of Tagore, but
to look for (you guessed it!) love (read lovely Lolitas). Four
of us from Kharagpur decided to take the overnight trip
and reach there in the wee hours of Ponchishe Boisakh
(the general consensus was that it was the ideal day for
bird-watching and if we're lucky, possibly cootchie-
cooing). Someone had a bright idea that the fastest way to
ecstasy would be to take a train to Purulia and then by bus
to Shantiniketan.So there we were, at Purulia around 9
PM only to learn that the next bus to Shantiniketan leaves
early morning at 5 AM!! Our efforts to hitch-hike a
truck-trip also proved futile and we had to spend the
night in a dhaba cursing our luck n Tagore's forefathers
(sorry bearded one, hope u don't mind). The bus got so
packed that we could only accommodate ourselves on the
roof and got going finally but the trip was enjoyable.
When we reached our destination, the show was already
over and we were left sulking at what could have been!
Undeterred we decided to soldier on and finally were
rewarded with success (Hooray) during the evening
cultural programme. There were other interesting
sidelights (unmentionable) and we returned next day with
soft n silky memories.
Perhaps now I can ask a question : I know some guys from
TCS who're planning to go to Shantiniketan, r u working
there ? Like the numerous unanswered queries of yours,
you too may decide to let it blow in the wind......



lea - U scare me now ! Though I do not work in TCS, but
do know quite a few guys there since our office is very
close to theirs. See, its no big deal for me to let u know
where i work and what i do........but i dont wantto end
up being a fool. i dont want you to show these mails of
mine to ur friends, and make fun of me. u never know,
i might actually know one of them, or my colleagues may
know them.........u see i have an uncommon name as far
as my company is concerned, and its not that big also.
it would be very easy for any of them to find out and i
know how guys are, they would distort anything. not
that i give a damn if theydo, but the very thought that
u might do somethinglike that..........i am sorry but i am
feeling scared now.



kband - Madhuri, I once gain apologise for the mental
agony that I've given you, quite inadvertently though.
Let me explain this, to believe it or not would entirely
depend on the strength of our week-old friendship
(if I can call it so) :
I ain't no conman, no fraud nor a cheap prankster. Just
another guy (like your nuumerous pals) who's probably
got the opportunity of his lifetime in developing
friendship without being bogged down by day-to-day
inhibitions. Much like children, who mingle easily with
each other with no shackles to bind them. One thing
that is dawning on me is that this isn't a simple challenge
and an extremely hazardous one at that. Years of
conditioning clouds our minds with worries, fears, pain
that is near impossible to get over. I tried to play mind
games with you in an effort to delve deeper into each
other's psyche without making it apparent - we had
been doing reasonably well. I savoured every moment
of it (not too sure now about you though) and tried to
open up as best as I possibly can. But then I stretched
things a bit too far. And I regret having done it, M.
In my misplaced enthusiasm, I tried to put pieces of the
jigsaw together to derive a picture of you and your
environment and I admit to have got carried away by
what was emerging. Let me state this emphatically - I
do not know anybody in TCS (at least now), it absolutely
does not matter to me and I never had any intention of
embarassing you. I have a fetish for privacy myself (as
you may have observed) so I can fully empathize with
you. Let me tell you another thing M, you've been privy
to my innermost being simply because I truly believe in
all that I have said about you, I swear by the Almighty !
Its a pity that things took such an unpredictable turn and
I'll never be able to forgive myself for this. So as a final
attempt I'll give you my Ph No. You can check out for
yourself in any manner you feel (be careful about not
giving away your no.) and decide what to do.



lea - I am going to apologise for being such a spoilt sport.
Theres no harm in admitting that.......I too haveenjoyed
every bit that has been exchanged because I never felt
the fear, inhibition which I would feel with or about
anyone. But some past experiences - so many people
have just taken advantage of my innocence, just made
fun of me, called me names...just because i have been
guillible. i accept that as my fault becauseu r not
supposed to be so stupid in today's world. but then, i
have become alert, and try not to hurt myself. I am not
going to lose my e-date ;-)) to my inhibitions though coz
i see much beyond this.........i see a great friendship........a
different friendship....a friendship which would not be
scarred by our fears and shackles. I am not going to
extend any further apologies and mind you if you do.
Lets forget these few mails and try and get ship wrecked
once again !So R, please revive ur naughty, flattering self
and pleeeeaaaazzzz those "mind games"....Boshe achi
potho cheye........



kband - Dear M, it takes me some time to get over
extreme situations, so pls bear it for some more time.
Am mighty relived (thanks to the Almighty!) that you're
back with me - tomay notun korey pabo boley harai
barey barey. Return gift is attached, hope u like it. Rana



(to be continued)